His Spiritual Gifts
“… each according to his ability.” – Matthew 25:15b
Gifted. “A gifted Indonesian”, my friend said. I began to zoom into a quest of deep searching “what is so gifted about me?” Talking about gift, as the word implies, it doesn’t point to me as the source, but the Giver as the source. As Spiritual Gifts are given to those believe in the Lord, the tribute and glory have to be attributed to dear Lord alone.
I did a spiritual gift test with a deep curiosity to discover what gift or perhaps gifts exactly He has trusted me. After filling the unending questionnaires, I realized that my score is pretty high (may be too much) compared to others. Maybe I have an overly high self-esteem, or perhaps God has really trusted me more and more upon my growth in Him. The second argument is one that I can’t say “no” seeing how true He has been to my life. He’s giving me more and more, as I seek His heart.
I could not identify a pattern in my spiritual gifts. The top 3 fall into different categories, which are serving, leading, and teaching. What I realize is that God has trusted me so much in various ways. And of course, I know that to the “five talents” that He has trusted me, I need to be held accountable especially for Him and His work.
I broke my heart, as I realize how fall short I have been in utilizing His big trust to me. Grant me wisdom in using whatever is from You for You alone. This heart of servant still belongs to You alone.
